Olio di Oliva e Sogni di Vino: Where did my Passion go?

Olio di Oliva e Sogni di Vino

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Where did my Passion go?

Have you ever felt that you lost your path on where you want to end up? The passion is there but for some reason it is hiding or being hindered by something else less important. I am in this mood right now. I know what my passion is but it is hard to come by these days. Most of you don't know but my job in Livorno let me go. I was ok with it. I decided it was meant to be since I knew I couldn't do that job for a whole year. I find it makes me move onto bigger, better things.

It has brought me to the Carabinieri which has triggered my passion to teach to groups of students rather than one on one. I have learned how to be present in each moment when I was working in Livorno. I learned to accept each moment as it was. But I cannot lie....I still speculate and wonder "what if" often. I am not a perfect person, as much I say in this blog that everything is most of the time "always" ok. I struggle just like the next guy. I struggle with my finances, my passions(when are they are going to manifest) and the ever famous, my relationships.

My one passion that has been lacking in enjoyment is my Bodyflow class. I have lost the one job I had teaching it since I took the job in Livorno. So now I am doing FLOW for me! And as much as I thought it would be enough, it isn't. I miss the enjoyment and satisfaction I get from seeing my students after the class. I see the satisfaction in my face and body but it isn't the same at all. I have been speaking with my contact with Les Mills France, which she told me she has signed contracts with two BIG health clubs in Florence. I was ecstatic when I received this information! But it seems to be on hold since I haven't received a call from the contact from the health club.

My second passion is writing of course.

Since working 10-hour days with the Carabinieri, I have lacked in writing posts for this blog and my Nile Guide blog. My brain is dead after a day speaking in English then translating from Italian to English for my boys. I can't find a thing to write about or the energy to type when I arrive home.

I guess my deal is that I am struggling to manifest my passion of teaching BODYFLOW more than anything else. I know it will happen sooner or later, I just really want it to happen now. It is what keeps the smile on my face and my fingers on the keys. Once I start teaching FLOW again, I am sure I will be writing more.

Then perhaps, things will flow down the path towards my desires in life, finances, career and the ever famous, relationships.

What I really am searching for is Balance....